I don't even know why I'm submitting this. I guess I simply feel the need to write about how I've been feeling for a while now...
Let's just say my first months of college have'n been particularly bright and fun or even pleasant. I've been dragging my aching self around almost on autopilot, hoping that one day my tear ducts would dry out (but they aren't showig any sign of this) and I simply feel exhausted, drained of all my will to live... I now only survive each day.

A lot of repressed feelings have been biulding up, I haven't had anyone to talk to, since my best friend actually has a social life (which I don't blame him for, maybe just envy him ) so I've barely been able to see him, and I'm basically an emotional train wreck.

To make things even better I've become so desperate for affection that I get attachet to every human being that seems to have the least bit of interest in me, just to have my trust broken each time they prove to have been merely polite, or worse, actually trying to make me feel that way on purpose for their amusement...

And now I've come to look for comfort in a virtual world... how pittyful...

I'm doing comissioned portraits again, but until I find the time to make a separate page for this. people are going to have to look through my works here

M-am apucat din nou de portrete la comanda. Studentzia asta... nu prea poti sa treci prin ea numai cu donatul de sange pentru bonuri de masa))
Ca sa nu o mai lungesc mult, daca doriti un portret (ca tot vin sarbatorile si vrem sa facem cadouri originale fara maraton prin magazine si fara credit prealabil in banca ) sau pur simplu aveti intrebari, nelamuriri, ma puteti contacta pe adresa de mail alina_neshu@yahoo.com si o sa va raspund cu placere

Preturile pana la 30 Dec. 2009 sunt 15 RON pentru portretul A4 standard (o persoana) si 25 RON pentru portretul A4 dublu (ex. un cuplu) dar cresc proportional cu marimea portretului si cu numarul de persoane care apar in el.

Am nevoie doar de o poza clara trimisa pe e-mail.

If any of you non-Romanian deviants want me to draw you a portrait (maybe you need a special birthday, Christmas, or Hannukkah gift that won't leave you broke ) you can leave a message here or better yet, contact me on my e-mail adress: alina_neshu@yahoo.com

I only need a clear photo of the person that I'm supposed to draw a portrait of.

UPDATE: I'm taking a short break from comissions during the holidays. maybe I'll manage to actually catch up on my assignments for classes But I'll be back soon

De ce oare...? De ce trebuie sa dovedesc la nesfarsit inutilitatea crasă în care îmi afund ființă... de fiecare data când din scheletele lacrimilor trecute îmi construiesc pentru a mia oara un cocon de cleștar în care sa cresc artificial emoții... trăiri... sentimente, minunat de pure si frumoase dar groaznic de inexistente în tine, în el, în voi... De ce...? Chiar e necesar sa imi autoflagelez sinele intr-un asa fel??? ...si totusi... nu ma pot opri

Like I said, yeeeeeey...! :happy: I got my first 100 pageviews... Yes, I do know It's not much, but I've only been a deviant for a week, so I'm just excited I got to a round figure... I'm acting like a little kid in the candy store, but I just have a lot of enthusiasm.
I'd like to thank (geez, it starts like a speech of an oscar winner ) all the deviants who were kind enough to check out my gallery, leave a comment, or even mark some of my works as favorites, but I owe a special thanks to =Ajzimmerman , ~LordHoki and ~dudebelieveme, who welcomed me into the DA family and helped me fit in easier. Thanks guys! I do appreciate it